There are so many times where I am put into a situation of uncertainty, where I doubt myself and my abilities to do a job or a task. I also seem to have a complex about me that often tells me that I’m on my own. I can’t ask for help; I can’t accept assistance.
Tomorrow I am facing an opportunity to observe another teacher. I am leaving my class behind of a large part of the day and just observing. I don’t know I feel to be honest; I’m nervous to leave my students in the hands of another teacher, I am excited to see another educator’s hard work and dedication and learn from it. I am wondering if this is the school’s way of giving me a sign that I am still not fit to teach; there’s so much that I have to think through.
As I thought through it, I am continually reminded of the fact that God has placed these people and this community into my life to develop me, not to destroy me. Yet, during that process I obviously am going to have to chip away the bad decisions and bad habits that I’ve developed over the years and obviously that may seem harmful and painful.
In this time I have to fight away the doubt and the self-deprecating way of thinking and reform my thought process. How many of you all deal with this? It isn’t easy. On the contrary, it’s very difficult to be so vulnerable and open, but it must be done for growth.
We must remember that we are worthy of this help and that we can grow these skills. We must remember that we are strong. We are not failures! In fact, we are only a failure if we decide to quit growing and not allow ourselves to be challenged by those around us.
Sometimes we need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture and see where we have flaws and where we need to grow. We need to step out of the picture and try to see the entire picture, not just the frame that we are standing in.
We can’t quit!
We can’t give up!
Don’t give up!
Proverbs 24:15-17English Standard Version (ESV)
15 Lie not in wait as a wicked man against the dwelling of the righteous;
do no violence to his home;
16 for the righteous falls seven times and rises again,
but the wicked stumble in times of calamity.
17 Do not rejoice when your enemy falls,
and let not your heart be glad when he stumbles,
Anthony K. Giesick
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